do you ever get that horrible feeling in your stomach because you can’t imagine anyone ever falling in love with you and wanting to spend the rest of their life with you
i just want to stop feeling this way so badly but this never ends for me. no matter where i am in my life, i always return to the things that destroy me. i take comfort in the fact that i know these things will never leave me, because everything else always does.
I wish people could just say how they feel like ‘Hey I really don’t like when you do that to me’ or ‘Hey I’m in love with you’ or ‘Hi I really miss you and I think about you all the time’ without sounding desperate. Why can’t everyone be painfully honest and just save people the trouble.
it’s about who you miss at 2 in the afternoon when you’re busy, not 2 in the morning when you’re lonely.
Some people think love is the end of the road, and if you’re lucky enough to find it, you stay there. Other people say it just becomes a cliff you drive off, but most people who’ve been around awhile know it’s just a thing that changes day by day, and depending on how much you fight for it, you get it, or you hold on to it, or you lose it, but sometimes it’s never even there in the first place.
~Colum McCann, Let the Great World Spin
How difficult it is to write to you! I have thought about it ever so many times—but it’s just these words one can’t say. I think perhaps if one had never written a word one would then be able to say what one meant. I dread so getting tangled in a mass of words that when I want most to write, I don’t.
~Virginia Woolf, from a letter
to Lady Ottoline Morrell (via violentwavesofemotion
I’m not the girl your mother warns you about. I won’t kiss your best friend or break your heart. I won’t make you choose between what you love to do & me. I’m not cold. I’m not reckless. I will love you more than anything. I will kiss you when you cry. I will stand by your side until you decide otherwise.